the La,la,la's of a Broken Heart

When you love someone, you look past all the wrongs and magnify the good.

This is why I was surprised with the sudden pain I've been feeling recently. I realized a lot of things in the last nine months that proved me wrong in so many ways about that relationship. It was too late to be angry and it will be such a waste of all the love I struggled to build for myself. I decided, to still see him the way I remember. Sometimes, pain makes a person fabricate the memories to justify the hatred. I won't fall into that.

this has always been true.

We Click

Hi Bes, things have always been hard for people like us. You are my mirror. Let's continue laughing at our problems. Let's make them wonder how.😄😄😄

Day 1

I ate junk for dinner and I certainly did not feel good :'(

but it's day 1 and I am of course going to be gentle with myself.

Anyway today I
1. told that person how I felt
2. did my job well, initiative yey!
3. been a companion of a friend
4. did not fuck up or anything
5. texted my mom and dad
6. bought bananas!!!!!!!!!!
7. went to a lunch mass

:)))) 7 lucky things that made today a very,very good day :)

Hello from the other side

Hi. Robbie took this photo yesterday outside the Cathedral. I really LOVE this photo because I was just so happy around the flowers !!!! plus I haven't attended mass in the San Agustin Cathedral in such a long time.

I went through so much emotional pain that week that I  lost weight because I lost my appetite and I could not sleep. I went to work looking a like a walking dead that even unknowing people noticed my sullen appearance.

and fast forward to more than a week later and I was already starting to wear my genuine smile again.

I know I'm doing better now and I could not help but thank the people who never left my side even when I told them I was feeling better

and to God who knew everything and never fails to amaze me with HIS love.

Rainbow

Hi. I hope the introduction sounds fine my dear. I came here to tell you that life is hard and people are mean ...

but there is poetry
and autumn
and upbeat songs
and people who loves you so much you just have to take notice
and my , falling leaves that may make your lonesome walks so cinematic
and love--  requited , reciprocated, once-requited, whatever form it may take
you can make a ballad out of it

and rainbows
and half-moons
and full-moons
and staaaaaaaaaaaars

and you have me :)

I love stories. Tell me yours, anytime :)



with love,

Jojie May